
Title: Underwater
Author: Maayan
Nahmani
Genre: Contemporary
Romance
Release Date: June
26, 2016
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In an instant, my world turned upside down
Because of one incident, my life will never be the same
Every day I struggled to breathe
Every day I went through the motions
I felt too much
I was numb
I was drowning
I was lost inside the black
So they made me go there
I was already there, watching from the dark
And then I met him
And then I saw her
He scared me to death
She took my breath away
He was darkness
She was my light
They whispered he can't be touched
She was the only one I could touch
I couldn't be with him, they needed me
I fucking needed her
So I told him I would be his friend
I told her I would be her friend. For now.
But I couldn't resist him for long
She finally realized that she'll always be mine
We were a hot mess
We were the perfect kind of mess
Then reality dawned on me
Then my demons broke loose
I was underwater, trying to break through to the surface
I reached out my hand, trying to pull her to shore
Could he really help me?
Would she accept me, scars and all?
This was us
This was our story
Author's Note:
"This book is based on true events and contains sensitive subjects that may be a trigger to some readers, such as violence, abuse and post-traumatic stress disorder. It also contains a parent with cancer. It is recommended for ages 18 and up."
Safe. No cheating/OW.
Because of one incident, my life will never be the same
Every day I struggled to breathe
Every day I went through the motions
I felt too much
I was numb
I was drowning
I was lost inside the black
So they made me go there
I was already there, watching from the dark
And then I met him
And then I saw her
He scared me to death
She took my breath away
He was darkness
She was my light
They whispered he can't be touched
She was the only one I could touch
I couldn't be with him, they needed me
I fucking needed her
So I told him I would be his friend
I told her I would be her friend. For now.
But I couldn't resist him for long
She finally realized that she'll always be mine
We were a hot mess
We were the perfect kind of mess
Then reality dawned on me
Then my demons broke loose
I was underwater, trying to break through to the surface
I reached out my hand, trying to pull her to shore
Could he really help me?
Would she accept me, scars and all?
This was us
This was our story
Author's Note:
"This book is based on true events and contains sensitive subjects that may be a trigger to some readers, such as violence, abuse and post-traumatic stress disorder. It also contains a parent with cancer. It is recommended for ages 18 and up."
Safe. No cheating/OW.


She stood under the
night sky, her head tilted up, clutching her jacket close to her body,
protecting herself from the cold.
I couldn’t help
noticing how beautiful she was. Before I knew it, I found myself standing
inches from her face – not touching – just standing close enough to feel the
warmth of her body. I hadn’t consciously walked towards her. She was like a
magnet, pulling me in.
I could tell my
nearness alarmed her. Her body froze. She lowered her head and pulled her
lower lip roughly between her teeth, worrying it. All I could think about as I
watched her with hungry eyes was how I wanted to pull her abused lip into my
mouth. Fuck. I was losing my mind. She made me feel too much, too
soon, and I had no fucking clue how to deal with all these new emotions.
Was she tense because
I flustered her or because I scared her?
I fucking hoped it
was the former.
She cleared her
throat a few times before she spoke. “I saw the owner looking at us as we came
outside. I really hope that protecting me doesn’t get you thrown out.”
Blinking, I asked,
“How do you know Toby?”
She shrugged her
shoulders. “I needed a guitar for my song. The guy who signed me up sent us to
ask him.”
Oh, of course, the
guitar. I should have realized. She was the only person I had ever seen take
the stage with an instrument, besides a local band. The problem was focusing on
anything else when she was this close. The smell of vanilla took control
of my senses and all I wanted to do was bury my head in the crook of her neck
and breathe her in.
“How do you know
him?” she asked.
“I work here.”
“You work here?”
“Yep. I’m a
bouncer.”
“Oh. What about the
support group? Aren't you working there too?”
“Nah, I’m only a
helper there a few times a week. It's not exactly a full time job.”
She nodded as if she
was trying to read me. I moved closer. She worried her lip some more and
stepped back. For every backward step she took, I stepped forward, until
she was caged between the brick wall and my body. I placed my hands on the wall
on either side of her head. She sucked in a breath, her body tensing against
me. I didn't mean to invade her personal space, but I needed to be near her,
to breathe her air.
Was it so wrong to
want to hold on to the first good thing coming my way, after more than four
excruciating years?
Call me a greedy
bastard, but I couldn’t let this woman go.
“I'm sorry I didn't
have a chance to say this sooner,” I said. “But your song…watching you up on
stage... it was one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen. You…” I drew
closer, until our noses touched. “You took my breath away.”
“Thank you,” she
said so quietly I almost didn’t hear her.
Brushing my lips
across her ear, I whispered, “You’re welcome.”
She settled a shaky
hand on my chest and gave me a small shove, trying to push me away.
I didn’t budge.
“You're too close,”
she breathed out, her voice quivering.
“Does my nearness
bother you?”
Her throat bobbed
nervously. “Yes,” she whispered.
I took a step back,
giving her room to breathe. I didn't mean to get out of control. I didn't want
to intimidate her. I wanted her on board with me, and I would do whatever I
could to make that happen.




I am twenty-six years
old and I live in a small town in Israel.
My family and I were
going through some difficult times not too long ago and one day I was confiding
in my best-friend about everything. I didn't know how to deal with it all. Then
she suggested I should write a book about it. I looked at her as if she had
grown another head and dismissed the idea on the spot. But the seed had been
planted, and day after day, little by little, without realizing it - I started
writing.
That’s how Underwater
was born.
I found writing to be
cathartic, healing. Something that helped my mind unwind and put things
in perspective. I discovered a magical world where I traveled between
imagination and reality. Writing became my home and I never wanted to leave.
I love to read,
write, listen to music, edit videos, and play the guitar. I am always looking
for the next creative thing. I also like a good movie and a glass of wine.


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